AKB48

    I love AKB48
                 i wanna say this  ^  

Seriously, after the 3rd general election :"( no matter how many times i watch it, it gives me , it frustrates me, i wanna cry again, i love akb more than ever 

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i will now give my comments to the other members 

 minegishi minami aka miichan 

HER,, the person i'm inlove with from the start, when i heard that she ranked 15, i cried ! seriously, i was blaming myself for not expressing my love for her, cannot buy a single cd to vote for her, i thought she will be in media senbatsu since she is pushed and became one of the front girls in team K. In PV's, my eyes only sees her, no one but her. I can't believe that she was still smiling while saying her speech. miichan is an inspiration because i can see in her eyes that she's still a teenager that wants to cry out loud.And if someday my love for akb will be gone that win't happen  I will never regret anything because she's one of  the reason I love AKB48.

maeda atsuko aka aachan 

AACHANNNN ~ omedetou :) you're my second oshi ~ :) i love you, miichan loves you too .... at first, i was not happy you got your throne back but now i realized how much you want to be number 1. I find it unfair when yuko got no.1 and you still got the middle in all PV's, what's the purpose of the election when you're still in the middle of everything? don't you think it's too obvious? maybe behind the stage, takamina is the leader, yuko makes the members laugh and you... just dance? while the others give ther best, you just got the middle without any sweat. But your best is just half of the other members.  I don't hate you, but it would be better if you talk to the staff and tell them to make a PV where everyone will have a fair screen time and not you in the middle. Your speech was the best "Even of you hate me,please don't hate akb" yappa~ i like this,  you're probably right ~! i'm telling this middle thingy again  no matter how much the haters would try to love you guys when they only see is you most of the time... it won't help. I will support you more, in your dramas, solo, everything. The hug of you and yuko is one of my favorite part, I can feel the friendship but aachan, you maybe motivated but not only you, i hope akimoto-san would understand ^_^. You were crying hard in the election i was captured there, arigatou ☺. I saw the M-station performace and talk and i was happy your more open to the surroundings like the old aachan i know who even cried because she doesn't want to be in the middle and being less mysterious.

oshima yuko aka yuko 

Yuko, she’s everybody’s oshi, no one would hate her, perfect as aachan’s rival, a funny pervy that every guys will love, even girls. She is beautiful in any way you look at her. I was sad when she got no. 2 but she was still happy, actually it’s her real position (no.2). I remembered when she got the 1^st place last election, fans got over reacted. Aachan’s face last election looks wasted but in yuko’s reaction in this election was beautiful, she was smiling for her friend, I felt that the election was for her and aachan. Who would ever think that this girl who dances in the back of haruna and miho would be now as one of the front girls? She, the person who doesn’t care what rank she’ll get, who doesn’t want to be supported instead, wants to be followed. I was really happy for her in her rank; she’s the first one who approached aachan in hug. What the fans wants to say, she said it (aachan is the face of akb but I hope to move together with her) something like that she’s trying to say that she hopes it would be fair ne?! she's worthed to be loved :)

kasai tomomi aka chiyuu

the sexy face in akb, i'm not a fan of her but i still have concern. From 12 to 16, that's REALLY unfair, i can see it -___-. the PV of everyday kashuucha, it was great but even the drama ver and dance ver i still didn't see her ... (she's the reason i can't complain why miichan is 15) and that is so uncool aki-p. Maybe it's her voice ? yadaa. 

kashiwagi yuki aka yuki

the reaction queen, she got 3 in the election  ahahha.... well i think i know the reason why, because of her oppai ??? nah .. i don't hate her, but i don't like her... so it's still fair, she loves miichan ne ?! that's why she's in my ranking :"D but i was happy because when she won in the election she got watermelon trophy *warai*  omedetou ne ?! ganbatte :)

shinoda mariko aka maririn

waaaaaaaaah ~ i'm not contented in her rank >< she got no.4, mariko-sama should not be in no.4 she's my model, the troll in akb >< maybe she got no.4 because every live of everyday kashuucha she's not there.. ilove her, she my perfect girl but sometimes i think miichan and her are not close because they don't have many pictures ne ?! think about it dakedo she stole my heart... in an interview aachan and miichan was asked, "if you were gonna be another akb member.. who will it be ?!" and they answer it's maririn, i love you forever MARIKO SHINODA, the model, one of greatest voice in akb, the fashionable, men will always love, a simple wink can make people faint  >< why can't i be you ?? :P

kojima haruna aka kojipaaa

the princess like in akb, wife of yuko but lover of takamina, got 6 in the election. Yuko is truly in love with her, she always do "skin ship"  to her ahahah... but they make a good couple. Her another couple is mariko because of adultery i think. nothing much comment about her.. 60% she deserve and 30% no because i think takamina should get that ! ><, she just got 6th because of an an 

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online

         He got online today ~ :|  and i was surprise dakedo my friend and him are already together. They're good now, i want to be happy for them, I AM HAPPY !!  i even congratulate them. Before i knew the news i want to tell him i miss him, how is he ??, i want to confess my feelings to him i don't care if he is deserving or what  but i'm late right ? atleast my friend is happy dakara.... Maybe it's the reason he got online today is because i'm an eyesore. i shouldn't be missing him because i don't have the right. I'm sorry for being this .. WAAAAAAAAH ~ i want to stop being negative srsly  but i still have yamada ne ?! my destiny. In yamada i'm NOT gonna give up no matter what, unless i became an akb member.

i'm smiling now, i always smile people say that i'm a smiling person, arigatou .... but atleast i want to confess this things and after that i'll say "let's be friends ne ?!" that'll be great ><~

me and my cousin jasmine

(i'm wearing the violet shirt while she is wearing the green one) 

ummm.... we're gonna watch HSJ concert summary 

jaa~ ♥

dream ~

              I had this weird dream last night . It was about my classmate(who's a guy) (won't mention his name). And it was like all of my classmates were there, we're like in some club ? or part of the school (I don't know ><). Then there was four chair and since I was no place to seat then that classmate offered he's seat to me( i don't even know why, in real life we're not even close just little. back to the story, so there i was about to seat, i saw myself seating on the floor, while the program starts he was with me and he was leaning to me while i am pretending to sleep. there was a blanket and my body was covered there (but i am not naked) i don't even know where did i get it but the purpose of it was to cover myself from that guy, (he is a cute GUY srsly) he left.Lastly our section is the one who's next to perform , we had fun in the end :P

since my post is personal i'll post random pic :)

these is my new fandom ?? well, no , i'm just trying to like them because i'm making a fanfic about nakki :)

annoyed ?!

right -__-  my cousin (jacques) went to our house the other, she saw me and my other cousin (agatha) is fangirling over hey say jump

we were watching ya-ya-yah's onigoku that time then she was like shouting too. Then we introduced her to our new addiction, she was like 'hey say jump??'. of course i introduced her to my bias 'yamada ryosuke' she said he's cute. I think I have another rival -____- she post pictures in tumblr full of yamada. I message her if she was okay, then she came to our house yesterday, she told me that, she doesn't like him she just think he's cute, i told her i wasn't mad and said to support me and my bias (lol) i'm dreaming ne?! . In the end, we're good now :) yatta~ 

         

i miss you

oh ! i miss someone T.T and it's japanese guy and my friend . My friend haven't called me for 2 days straight and I can't stand it anymore. She already knew our phone number (since we change) is she really that busy? that's really unfair .

and since i miss her~

picture of us together ♥

then, this stupid guy i miss. I shouldn't miss him, his unforgivable !!!!!! waruyonaisuno >< baka baka ! but seriously, i miss him !!! ;_; all of his girlfriends miss him except me, i'm not a girlfriend  it's been a month since his last online. He is good in words that you will be inspired, the simple 'warai' he says always will make you laugh.i'll explain who is he really in my next entry because right now i miss them ♥

confused

             I have this friend (co-fangirl) but i only talk to her in phone, and she has this boyfriend in the net (he's a japanese). The guy is popular because before he owned that account, yamada ryosuke owned that :) (my destiny btw). My friend told me that she's is tired of loving him because she realized he doesn't know him very well and she thinks he's only playing with her (since he become TOO popular) but since I don't want her to end it with him, i always tell her that she shouldn't give up and she's only thinking too much. A day comes  that the japanese posted "i really like you ?" as his status . So i chatted him and asked him if who it is then he told me that it was my friend and i told our whole conversation to her, i felt how happy she is, i can't help it but smile. Then she told me that she's making a scheme that she's using her classmate to confess to the guy because she want to know if he's gonna fall for it but in the end ...no 

           Months pass by, I saw him online in the middle of the night, we chatted about many things, i remembered the time I message him (i was the one who always starts the conversation) i was nervous that moment, so how could i forgot but that time i thought we're friends, I forced him to answer my question (who does he likes?) and he suddenly change the topic, he asked if i know ____in personal  ( my friend in phone) . I told him no because it's the truth, i still haven't met my FRIEND, then I reverse the topic again then he suddenly confessed to me. I don't know why but i felt the combination of happiness and being worried. Of course, obviously i'm worried my friend totally likes the guy (not only like ,it's more suki suki suki) totally inlove with him . I really don't know what to do, if i should tell her because i don't want to betray her. In the next day, i immediately asked him if he really like me then he told me he's not sure , he wants to know me more. Everytime I chat to him, I always laugh, he is really a mysterious guy.He even change his relationship status in "complicated" (FOR THE FIRST TIME) You know where I got wrong? is when he asked me if i like him and i said yes because i thought that it's more friends likey. After 2 days, i told my friend everything because i feel guilty and don't want to betray her. She cried when I told her everything, i almost cried too . Then we found out that the japanese guy is not only on to me but there are other girls too (2). She got really mad at him TOTALLY !! . She told the girls the truth and she ask them to continue being with him as lovers, even me. I told her that I would make him fall for me seriously then dumped the guy or I would confront  him, make him tell the truth . After that he didn't get online until now (i think it's almost 1 month) 
              
              We joined in a jpop singing contest here in our country, and we got a chance to see each other because of practices , and for the first time ! She hugged me as I did the same. Now that we see each other, we often talk. Then the other night, she told me that the other girl is being competitive to her (because my friend is the first girl of the guy), I put the topic of him again (baka desu ne ?! -__-) i always tell her i will get my revenge for HER. I was talking and talking until she asked me if I like the guy, i told her it's hard to explain but the truth is i don't know the answer. Maybe i'm not doing anything for her, i'm just doing it for myself. I think i'm a bad influence for her too, because i was the one who told her that she should get revenge thus we always talk late at night , I don't even know what to do know gommen ;_;

it's his currently pic (LOL) it's yamada's. I can surely tell he's a japanese because he can speak one, and my friend said he's not using Google translate words (because my friend can speak and read japanese). But right now, I want him to be online, i want to talk to him :'| Am i a bad friend ?