numb

wwwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh ~~ i wanna scream, 

you're so selfish ... how could you ? i hate hate hate hate you >< don't you know it hurts? you're so numb  .. you stupid guy, who thinks he's perfect .... i really hate you, why when it comes to me .. you are so cold, so numb.. don't you know I like you ..that's so unfair, REALLY . You promised me right ?! you said you won't let anyone hurt me but who's hurting me now is YOU !!

you're the reason of everything...... my ignorance of everyone, the reason i like girls now than boys ... 

you, so stupid

what I want

 All of us have own dreams, but most of fangirls/fanboys want to marry their bias of course... but mine is different, I want to be an AKB.

I seriously love that, i'm a girl and i WANT that, I love them... but how can I pursue my dreams? but education is not the key to be part of them. I'm not a crazy wota but i just realized that marrying my bias would be very hard since I'm just an ordinary person

yeah.. that's me... i'm not that ugly (i would say) but it's really IMPOSSIBLE right??? since my bias is this guy 

*face palm*

I saw someone who biased him too... and she's kawaii ~ mecha mecha, even me would fall for that girl...

ne? i want to be an akb... my mind and heart said XDD I would like to kiss them and to be kissed ... that would be cool ... and I want to express what I feel,,, to laugh everyday and to be busy ... my dream so weird ne ?! 

Friend :"D

yeah... i have this friend, she's really kind, popular, top student, funny, perfect? ... I admire her sometimes because of her confidence, we're not that close then a while ago i chatted her about our activity on Monday.. I told her I can't do it,I can't recite on stage with all students in front of me and you know what she said??

(translated)" Paula (my name) it's not that i want you to recite because i'm teasing you but i want you to conquer it, you're a beautiful girl and you should conquer it."

(original) alam mo paula di nmn kita pag rrecite dhil nangaasar lng ako.( kasama na din un) pero kasi gusto ko maconquer mo na din. your a beautiful girl :0 you should conquer it


well,,, i never thought she'll say that because we're not that close ... she's sweet :"D that's why i like girls more than boys... BUT i am NOT a LESBIAN (a little maybe)

a random pic about friendship ... ATSUYUU

p.s.

Gambarimasu.... this week will be a BUSY one XDD srsly

AKB49 MANGA

well i'm reading the manga of akb :) it was really cool .. aachan gave some advices XDD and it really affect me

Aachan is really right here XDD.. everyone is the sun ne ?! :"> the reason i love AKB . So the guy came to be the center again (yatta~)

last day of their practice ... yoshinaga and hiroko was left ... then yoshinaga said something like this X( now i want to be an AKB it's really my dream srsly ><  why can't I ???

Now it's their concert 12th Gen Kenkyusei theater concert :"D and 4 akb came

yuko, aachan, takamina and mariko ... this is really lucky but it's fiction ne ?! :( 

before the concert starts, hiroko gave a speech 

as their concert started

HE/She thought he was doing wrong but when he saw the real thing, fans are screaming, loving them, they were happy 

AKB  is beautiful ne ?! oh... look at takamina, falling to that center guy hiroko

There was a part where hiroko fall off the stage with a shocked by the fans but they still continue the performance and they even performed livelier .awww ... :">